Not sure if I ever got to my point

OK, I play an online computer game called World of Warcraft (WoW ). I play way too much. I can't even tell you how much because I refuse to add it up and see, but it is bad, like as much as a full time job...maybe. Off and on all day.

It is an escape it is anger management, it is the only way I talk to other adults and moms as well, but I still need to cut back, interact more with my kids, teach them more, cook more, clean more. I have made improvements, but in a way that just shows how sad it really all was.

I am borderline depressed and I think as much as WoW entertains me, and it is one of the only fun things Ican do with my hubby, (therefore keeps me out of full depression) it also keeps me from moving farther away from the borderline of depression.

I am not saying that people who play wow are bad parents or depressed I am just saying I need to find a more healthy balance for me and my family. I love having an affordable way to do something with my husband we both enjoy and can be at home with the kids.

It is soo freaking hot this summer I do not even open the door unless necessary. We live out of town and gas is so expensive that we don't do anywhere. I feel bad we have to run around in the house to get exercise. Aidan is too rambunctious to take to the pool alone with him and his brother, if we had access to one that is.

So we stay in side and try to to projects but usually just play toys and watch tv/movies. Flashcards on good days as well. I can not wait for it to cool down, in about 1 month it should start to get more tolerable.

Maybe we can even use our zoo membership that we have had for 4 months and only used 2 times. We can go to the new park in out lil town. Go for morning walks.

I know that there are other things we can do inside and I have tried a couple but he gets frustrated easy and so do I, and I rarely try past a 2nd time. These are excuses and only that, and I should try, try, try again. Now that I have admitted this to complete strangers maybe I will.

But if anyone out there has ideas, advice, or even sympathizes, any feed back is good feed back to me. (Evan though I know I may regret saying that)