So i have joined some mom forums with people in my area and with just people that have things in common. I am seeing alot of people with babies the same age as Evan that are pregnant again.
Keep in mind that both of my pregnancies we NO FUN. I was so sick they put me on bed rest with a iv /PIC line for 3-4 month each time. My 1st child was 9 lbs 10 oz ( I am not a big person, 5 foot 2, 125 weight before 1st child) So I had horrid back pain, and once labor started, even the epidural could keep away all the pain in my back, then after 36 hours of labor the DR said he is too big we need to do a c-section. (my mother can tell this story better than I Can, I think I have blocked it out).
2nd baby still as sick not as big though so back pain wasn't bad at all, and scheduled c-section was actually wonderful experience. Recovery sucked but the surgery it self, I actually enjoyed most of.
But given all this, the lost work/pay, the medical bills, the stress on hubby and family to take care of me as well as my child, the fear, the pain ect. I swore off more children, Hubby got fixed 2 was enough. Right, any sane person would make the same choice.
Well now I am getting jealous of all these pregnant women, I for some reason am sad that I won't have another pregnancy or another baby inside me, that I won't breast feed again. Even though all of these things are things you moan and groan about when you are doing it.
I am sad. Stupidly Sad.
What is wrong with me, I must be a glutton for punishment, not to mention that I can barely handle both of my children some days, and ask for help on grocery shopping days cause shopping with them is at times impossible.
But I do still yearn for another.
OK my other topic:
Have you ever got the urge to cut your hair a lil your self, and then couldn't stop. Some how you convince your self that you are just as capable as the professionals and just cant put the scissors down, you keep going back and fixing this or that for days?
I need the scissors to be hidden, taken away I haven't ruined my hair yet but I know I may soon. (Even though my new bangs I gave my self as far from straight)
I wish I had the foresight to take a before picture, but I will see what i have in stock to show you.
OK I found and took some pics to see what you think. I am suck I dork I know.
2 before and 2 after.
Before: 
After:
3 comments:
I like the bangs!!
I TOTALLY understand the getting jealous of other pregnant women. When I go to the school to pick up my Kindergartner, all the other Moms stand around with a baby on their hip and I have, what? My car keys to keep me company? :p LOL.
Hubby was also snipped after 2nd child for many very good reasons. Thank God, b/c I'd have gotten knocked up by now for all the wrong reasons if he hadn't. Hard to think logically when you see babies.
Hey - I cut my hair this weekend! My husband actually helped and did a good job. Surprising! LOL.
He just helped me save like $30! :)
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